Rejection and Redirection

Isle in Palawan

Rejection gives you the opportunity to look in another direction at things you might not have seen otherwise. ~The Single Woman

I heard a similar quote before and it is only now that I am beginning to understand its meaning. Maybe because I have ignored the things I thought were just okay for me but it turned out that I was also hurt in the process. There were times that I would immediately shrug them off thinking I can manage them in just a snap of my finger. But lo and behold, I found myself in crying state because it was only then that I realized I was not successful with my pursuit.

The denial feeling may have temporarily appeased the broken heartedness but that did not totally solve the problem. I realized to myself that it is alright for me to let myself feel dramatic at times and just for a moment feel the pain. And that I also got to embrace my own flaws because it is through them that I am learning to love myself more.

My journey towards fulfilling a personal dream has been a learning experience for me as I get to discover my potentials and other things I am eager to pursue, that is to be helpful in the best way I can especially to the people I care for. I believe those hurtful events of my life just happened so I can learn to let go of the unnecessary things and relearn to make wiser priorities.

I never thought the rejections I had even allowed me to reassess the things I wanted to achieve and to discover what I truly want which I have been asking myself a lot lately. This could also be the reason why I encountered a couple of failures, before realizing that it meant I am being redirected to a different and much better path to tread on. I am overwhelmingly grateful for those experiences because they encouraged me to become bolder and braver in fulfilling my personal goals. And because of that, I look forward for better opportunities to improve in every aspect of my life – emotionally, physically, financially, and spiritually.

Looking back at all of my past disappointments and frustrations, I am glad that I am becoming more appreciative of the simpler things I used to neglect my attention to and at the same time, aiming higher far reaching what I am destined to be.

Feeling the Positive Vibes

I was partly pessimistic before. Strange but that’s what I realized about myself. I was only able to recognize it upon reading a book by Louise Hay called, You Can Heal Your Life.

I have become curious reading the book since I always saw it displayed in one corner. Never did I realize that this would also be helpful for me. I thought my father would just want to expand his knowledge about healing since he also has a gift of healing. I wondered why he has not read the book. But what really drew me to read it is when I desired to be healed from my skin rashes. I have been experiencing it for a couple of days now, and I look forward to feeling perfectly well very soon.

Anyway, Louise Hay’s book has successfully magnetized me. It was kind of funny that at first I skipped reading the first few chapters of the book. I immediately read the last chapter which talks about healing the body.  I’m glad to have learned something from it especially the funny realizations about the negative emotions behind each illness. Since I have become hooked to finishing the book, I even dreamt the other night that I was being healed. My mom even accompanied me in Cubao, Quezon City Philippines. I found it strange why of all places I would go there. I wonder.

As I said, I learned that the illnesses like cancer are caused by the negative emotions we have not withheld. I believe it is true since I have personally experienced it myself. Just last week, my father and I had a word war. Due to my irritability to his high pitch angry voice; I was not able to control myself from reacting negatively at him.  This only angered him more.

After saying my simple but damaging line, I immediately went straight to my room. Then I found myself crying hard and almost losing my breath after I heard my father shouting terribly at me outside my room. I even felt I was suffering from asthma and my hands began to numb. I got scared. I thought I will not be able to recover from that feeling. Suddenly, I told myself to be calm until I felt better. The good thing about what happened was I did not let myself sleep with still negative emotions in mind. I suddenly looked for my Bible and reflected for a few minutes upon reading an epistle. Glad that I was still able to lift up my spirit.

Earlier this day, I watched a video clip about a visualization tool created by The Secret team. I believe this is a beautiful mind exercise. I choose to watch this more often so I would always be filled with positive thoughts. Enjoy!

When Frustration Sinks In

I feel so lost or am I really lost? I’ve read tons of pages from an e-book I subscribed and even bought. Funny that I even thought of no longer buying e-books online but here I am out of my curiosity again. I gave it a try for the last time. I really thought so. I could have been pressured to open it thinking I would learn a lot. I did but I could have been so overwhelmed. Information overload I must say.

A few hours ago, I even wrote how disappointed I am with what I’ve purchased. I charged my credit card again. I know am supposed to control my cash outflows (unless they’re really important). I hate to say it “broke”. No, I still believe I could get all my investment back by pushing myself to take that necessary action. I felt that it is my current need at this moment. Yes, I need some action!

I am about to feel depression but as I have promised myself, I will only be entertaining positive thoughts. It seems that I am becoming an expert in repelling negative thoughts. I know I have to take quick action very soon. I also realized I have motivated myself enough that it’s really time for me to just do it. I know it may sound repetitive but I think I must instill this in my mind so that I will no longer be coward to overcome all my fears.

Yes, I gotta be Fearless. That’s why I liked about the title of Taylor Swift’s song, “Fearless”. I feel that that word is so powerful to me. I read somewhere that becoming fearless is not the absence of fear but becoming courageous despite all the fears.

Have a Deep Rest

I really look forward to sleeping longer this night with a well rested mind and body. I have been out this weekend and it seems my body is already reminding me to take a deep rest! As I am very obedient, I would oblige.

If there is one advice I would choose to take, it would be this following quote about sleep.

Early to bed and early to rise makes a man HEALTHY, WEALTHY, and WISE.Benjamin Franklin

P.S. I also searched the above quote in the internet and I found it is an American song titled, Early to Bed.