Missed Blogging

It’s already March 31st and only a few more hours it will now be April. Time flies so fast. Or is it really that fast?

This month I noticed that I was only able to come up with a few posts.  “What could be the reason?” as I reflect on this. Frankly speaking I have been so busy thinking these past few days. It’s kind of ironic that when I started blogging here in WordPress I would always look forward to reading the scheduled topic for a day.

There’s never a day that I would try to miss a blog post. I may have missed a day without posting but I would always make up for that day by posting in advance. There came a time that I will not sleep unless I made my blog post for that day. Seasons are changing I must say. But who am I not to miss blogging? I still love to write more so I could learn and discover myself more.

For the past few days I busied myself studying and rehearsing songs for our CLP scheduled every Sunday. There are even times I wanted to give up and just rest especially when I think that it will take us more weeks to practice. I know I must be more than grateful that I am part of our community’s Music Ministry. This has been one of my fervent wishes as I love to touch more people by singing praise and worship songs heartily. Just the thought of it already encourages me to just go on.

And oh by the way, I am also into dancing! Sometimes I feel like I’m an artist or a celebrity who is busy improving her own craft. I definitely love music as I enjoy both – singing and dancing! Back in my younger years, I could not forget memorable instances when I displayed my interest in dancing. When I was in my kindergarten year, I was part of a dance group wherein we were asked to dance in an important event in our school. I could no longer recall if that was the school’s Foundation Day. All I know I was not able to dance that day!

I would always recall that instance with my mom since it was because of her I was not able to perform then. She told me the program will not start so early in the morning and thought that programs would start late. She was wrong in saying that since I missed our dance performance and I really cried for it! My teacher even told my mom that I was our class’ star dancer.

My love for dancing did not stop there as I always displayed my gusto in dancing whenever there is an opportunity. Funny that I would only dance in my high school year when it was required in our class. I will never forget the beautiful remark I received from a former classmate of mine. She told me why I did not join cheer dancing since I can dance well. My reasoning in mind then was I did not like going home late because of dance practices. I also learned that it was very difficult to ride a jeepney (mode of transportation here in the Philippines) if I go home very late in the evening.

Anyway, I am now given another opportunity to show off my dancing skills. Mind you I am also part of our Dance Ministry! Later this evening, I would be recalling the dance steps we practiced the other night. My only problem is I could not immediately absorb some of them in my mind.  Hopefully I could now memorize some of the dance steps. Hello to a fast dance song to the tune of Usher’s DJGot Us Falling in Love Again!

Last Kiss

I have been humming ang singing this song for several days already. I cannot even recall where I was able to first saw this video. But the moment I listen to the song, I have become instantly addicted especially how beautifully harmonious the singers did in their cover.

The song is called Last Kiss which is originally sang by Taylor Swift. Boyce Avenue did an amazing cover again but this time they collaborated with the newcomers/lovely duo Megan and Liz who are twins! I thought I was wrong since you can easily recognize who is Megan and Liz not only with their hairstyles but also with their faces.

Anyway, it seems ironic that I instantly liked the song though I do not have such past experience. I also listened to Taylor Swift’s song but I seem to like this cover version better maybe because I can really feel the feelings conveyed in the song that I also enjoyed singing it!

Only Seventeen

Cover of "A Walk to Remember"

Cover of A Walk to Remember

This reminded me of a favorite song I enjoyed singing before. It was Mandy Moore’s song titled 17. I got hooked listening to her songs when her movie A Walk to Remember was shown in movie theaters several years ago.

Can’t believe it’s been a long time already! I was still in my teens then. I even told myself that when I turn 17, Mandy Moore’s song would be my banner song for that year. However, it’s inevitable for me that I would sing a different song after a few months of singing it countless times.

Anyway, it was because of that song that 17 became my favorite number. I still like that number up until today. I just feel that this song has somehow helped me to know myself better and know what I really wanted to do with my life.

As I read through the lyrics of the song 17, my favorite lines can be found in the second half of the Chorus which I am also sharing here:

Think I made my mind up
I got time to grow up
Face responsibility
Livin’ in the moment
Keepin’ my heart open
While I’m only 17

Perfection

Natalie Portman won the Oscar’s Best Actress Award for Black Swan!

Though I was not able to watch the Oscars live, I am still updated. Thanks to the people who love sharing news on Facebook.  Before that, I was already curious since I read very short reviews about the film and Natalie Portman’s great portrayal in the movie.

Just last week, my mom and I watched the movie Black Swan. I was initially told by my mom that the film would mostly deal with psychology.  Never did I realize I would find the movie suspenseful. Some parts of the movie I really found disturbing especially for very young ones. I wondered why the movie is rated 13 only when I think it must be rated 18. Just my opinion since the movie is currently shown here in the Philippines and most people here are still not open talking which are for adults only.

Mind you my mom even told me not to watch some sensitive scenes in the movie. But at some point I wondered my mother must have forgotten I am already in my past 20s! My goodness I believe I must also open myself to some issues of sexuality. I know I am matured enough to understand these things.

Because of this I found some resemblances in Nina’s relationship with her controlling mother in the movie vis-à-vis my relationship with my mom. At times I find my mom so conservative with the way I should dress in public like for instance when we went to Boracay two years ago. Since most women wear short shorts, I also wore mine. My mom discouraged me since I looked thin and it did not suit me. I felt bad then since it became a very big deal. But then it just came to my mind that maybe what she was telling to me was right. Guess what, I changed to my more decent and comfortable clothes. Glad I did since I felt the cold air when we went outside that evening!

Anyway, the following question came to my mind after I watched the movie: Can anyone really achieve such perfection?  I suppose some who may be reading this have already watched the film. What I liked about it is it really focused to its central theme of perfection. It is told in the perspective of Nina who struggles in becoming perfect as a ballerina dancer. She has become obsessed that she overworked herself just to perfect her dance moves instead of just enjoying her moment of dancing.

In some ways, I could easily relate to her character. I too admit that I also tend to become perfectionist but now in a more relaxed way I guess. I know I have already missed a couple of days posting in my WordPress blog. But that does not mean I should get upset. I would always tell myself to take time and just be relaxed. I could still get back on track.

I realized that sometimes becoming overly obsessed with perfectionism leads to stress and extreme pressure. This has happened to me before. I must have felt toxic since it also affected my relationship with the group I headed in my community before. After that incident, I mellowed and become more relaxed in dealing with them.

It also helped that I temporarily left the community I am still part of since this enabled me to reflect on the beautiful things I did. I never thought I could accomplish great things being a leader in our community knowing that I was shy before I became all out in my service.  I am happy to have already overcome my shyness and I am embracing my better self now.

As I end my today’s post, I would like to share the most striking line in the movie:

“Perfection is not just about control, it is also about Letting Go.” –Black Swan

Weekly Photo Challenge: Refuge

I got this picture when we had our side trip in Camarines Sur just last weekend. We were supposed to bathe in a hot spring but we had our picture takings in their place instead. Among the many sightings we went to, the above picture is one of the most enchanting sight I saw. Since this weekend’s photo challenge is about refuge, it also reminded me of a beautiful lyrics from Hillsong‘s With You:

I will sing about
Everything You are, always
I will tell the world
Everything You’ve done in me

I stand on higher ground
I was lost but now I’m here

With You, my refuge
My stronghold, always
With You, faithful one
Holding on
I am always with You!

Ice Cream Please!

What a great way to delight one’s afternoon by eating a cup of ice cream!  For me eating an ice cream either in a cone or in a glass brings so much joy and relaxation to my senses. What more when it is shared with your great family and friends!

I remember I ordered an ice cream before with almost the same toppings as shown in the picture below. Though the cost appeared pricey to me I ignored it. Since I traveled far enough to a particular place I went to, why not treat myself an afternoon snack.

Eating ice cream feels like heaven to me. As I love and enjoy eating, I ordered an ice cream right away in the first store I entered to. Now I start to wonder where I placed that picture of the ice cream I ate.

Anyway, I also enjoy eating ice cream with fresh fruits like strawberries, mangoes, peaches, kiwi, etc. Hence, I chose the picture below from among the images I found in Google. And I am starting to crave just by staring at the picture of this ice cream.

As I end this post, I am now thinking of going to the nearest store. By the time you read this, I am already done. Happy eating! =)

Never Again

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on “I can’t,” because the Word says: “I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on fear, because the Word says: “God has not given me a spirit of fear, but one of power, love and a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on doubt and a lack of faith, because the Word says: “God has dealt to each one [every person] a measure of faith.” (Romans 12:3)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on weakness, because the Word says: “The Lord is the strength of My life” (Psalm 27:1) and “The people that know their God shall be strong and carry out great exploits.” (Daniel 11:32)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on the supremacy of Satan over my life, because the Word says: “Greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world.” (1 John 4:4)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on defeat, because the Word says: “God always causes me to triumph in Jesus Christ.” (2 Corinthians 2:14)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on a lack of wisdom, because the Word says: “Christ Jesus has become for me wisdom from God.” (1 Corinthians 1:30) and “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” (James 1:5)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on sickness, because the Word says: “With His stripes I am healed.” (Isaiah 53:5) and Jesus “Himself took my infirmities and bore my sickness.” (Matthew 8:17)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on bondage, because the Word says: “Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.” (2 Corinthians 3:17) and “My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit.” (1 Corinthians 6:19)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on worries and frustration, because the Word says: I am “Casting all my cares upon Him who cares for me.” (1 Peter 5:7)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on condemnation, because the Word says: “There is now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus.” (Romans 8:1) I am in Christ, so therefore I am free from condemnation!

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on loneliness, because the Word says: Jesus said, “I am with you always, even till the end of the age [forever].” (Matthew 28:20) and “I will never leave you, nor forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on curses or bad luck, because the Word says: “Christ has redeemed me from the curse of the Law, being made a curse for me: that the blessings of Abraham might come upon the gentiles [that’s me] through Jesus Christ: That we might receive the promise of the Spirit through faith.” (Galatians 3:13-14)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on discontent, because the Word says: “I have learned in whatever state (circumstances) I am, to be content.” (Philippians 4:11)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on unworthiness, because the Word says: “He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” (2 Corinthians 5:21)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on confusion, because the Word says: “God is not the author of confusion, but of peace.” (1 Corinthians 14:33) and “We have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God.” (1 Corinthians 2:12)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on persecution, because the Word says: “If God be for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on the domination of sin over my life, because the Word says: “The law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death.” (Romans 8:2)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on insecurity, because the Word says: “When you lie down, you will not be afraid; Yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet. Do not be afraid of sudden terror, Nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes; For the LORD will be your confidence, And will keep your foot from being caught.” (Proverbs 3:24-26)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on failure, because the Word says: “In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” (Romans 8:37)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on frustration, because the Word says: “You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.” (Isaiah 26:3)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on fear of the future, because the Word says: “As it is written: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit.” (1 Cor 2:9-10)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on troubles, because the Word says: Jesus said, “In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

Source: http://encouragingbiblequotes.com/

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I was looking for a quote to help me feel better. Guess what I found not only one quote but a number of encouraging Bible verses as mentioned above. I especially liked the first two verses since sometimes I still find myself depressed of the things I cannot do and/or I must have done. I know I must now embrace positive thoughts more often. It is only through ACTION that I can conquer all the negativity.

To reiterate my favorite verses I say,

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on “I can’t,” because the Word says: “I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on fear, because the Word says: “God has not given me a spirit of fear, but one of power, love and a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7)