Rejection and Redirection

Isle in Palawan

Rejection gives you the opportunity to look in another direction at things you might not have seen otherwise. ~The Single Woman

I heard a similar quote before and it is only now that I am beginning to understand its meaning. Maybe because I have ignored the things I thought were just okay for me but it turned out that I was also hurt in the process. There were times that I would immediately shrug them off thinking I can manage them in just a snap of my finger. But lo and behold, I found myself in crying state because it was only then that I realized I was not successful with my pursuit.

The denial feeling may have temporarily appeased the broken heartedness but that did not totally solve the problem. I realized to myself that it is alright for me to let myself feel dramatic at times and just for a moment feel the pain. And that I also got to embrace my own flaws because it is through them that I am learning to love myself more.

My journey towards fulfilling a personal dream has been a learning experience for me as I get to discover my potentials and other things I am eager to pursue, that is to be helpful in the best way I can especially to the people I care for. I believe those hurtful events of my life just happened so I can learn to let go of the unnecessary things and relearn to make wiser priorities.

I never thought the rejections I had even allowed me to reassess the things I wanted to achieve and to discover what I truly want which I have been asking myself a lot lately. This could also be the reason why I encountered a couple of failures, before realizing that it meant I am being redirected to a different and much better path to tread on. I am overwhelmingly grateful for those experiences because they encouraged me to become bolder and braver in fulfilling my personal goals. And because of that, I look forward for better opportunities to improve in every aspect of my life – emotionally, physically, financially, and spiritually.

Looking back at all of my past disappointments and frustrations, I am glad that I am becoming more appreciative of the simpler things I used to neglect my attention to and at the same time, aiming higher far reaching what I am destined to be.

When Frustration Sinks In

I feel so lost or am I really lost? I’ve read tons of pages from an e-book I subscribed and even bought. Funny that I even thought of no longer buying e-books online but here I am out of my curiosity again. I gave it a try for the last time. I really thought so. I could have been pressured to open it thinking I would learn a lot. I did but I could have been so overwhelmed. Information overload I must say.

A few hours ago, I even wrote how disappointed I am with what I’ve purchased. I charged my credit card again. I know am supposed to control my cash outflows (unless they’re really important). I hate to say it “broke”. No, I still believe I could get all my investment back by pushing myself to take that necessary action. I felt that it is my current need at this moment. Yes, I need some action!

I am about to feel depression but as I have promised myself, I will only be entertaining positive thoughts. It seems that I am becoming an expert in repelling negative thoughts. I know I have to take quick action very soon. I also realized I have motivated myself enough that it’s really time for me to just do it. I know it may sound repetitive but I think I must instill this in my mind so that I will no longer be coward to overcome all my fears.

Yes, I gotta be Fearless. That’s why I liked about the title of Taylor Swift’s song, “Fearless”. I feel that that word is so powerful to me. I read somewhere that becoming fearless is not the absence of fear but becoming courageous despite all the fears.