When Frustration Sinks In

I feel so lost or am I really lost? I’ve read tons of pages from an e-book I subscribed and even bought. Funny that I even thought of no longer buying e-books online but here I am out of my curiosity again. I gave it a try for the last time. I really thought so. I could have been pressured to open it thinking I would learn a lot. I did but I could have been so overwhelmed. Information overload I must say.

A few hours ago, I even wrote how disappointed I am with what I’ve purchased. I charged my credit card again. I know am supposed to control my cash outflows (unless they’re really important). I hate to say it “broke”. No, I still believe I could get all my investment back by pushing myself to take that necessary action. I felt that it is my current need at this moment. Yes, I need some action!

I am about to feel depression but as I have promised myself, I will only be entertaining positive thoughts. It seems that I am becoming an expert in repelling negative thoughts. I know I have to take quick action very soon. I also realized I have motivated myself enough that it’s really time for me to just do it. I know it may sound repetitive but I think I must instill this in my mind so that I will no longer be coward to overcome all my fears.

Yes, I gotta be Fearless. That’s why I liked about the title of Taylor Swift’s song, “Fearless”. I feel that that word is so powerful to me. I read somewhere that becoming fearless is not the absence of fear but becoming courageous despite all the fears.

Fearless…Brighter than the Moon

Before I came up with my post today, I searched synonyms of the word brave. I guess you also tried after reading it. Kidding aside I never thought I could write a post this often. When am unable to immediately generate ideas, I would do other things instead like surfing the net or read a book. When my mind is ready, creative ideas come out unexpectedly. I love that.

Anyway, I too have been a witness to one’s bravery. I may have been at awe with Joan of Arc’s courage. Who would think she can lead an army of men when women in her time do not engage themselves in such thing.

I also admire women who have become successful entrepreneurs just like Socorro Ramos, founder of Philippines’ National Bookstore. Learning how she managed to build her business even in World War years is truly amazing.

If there is someone who truly made me look up to because of his/her braveness is this famous personality. Almost everyone never thought s/he could still regain her popularity status. S/he was a shining star before. But nobody did expect that his/her star would shine again and even brighter than the moon. (Firework song works this time.) That person is none other than… (drum roll please) is Sandara “Dara” Park of 2NE1.

What made me admire her in the first place? When she found out that she is no longer as popular in the Philippines, she went back to Korea to still pursue her lifelong dream of becoming a singing superstar. Her determination and passion to succeed has helped her become the person she is now. I also liked that despite her age (though she does not really look like one), that did not prevent her from improving her singing and dancing skills and to become almost at par with her peers.